Behind The Smile

Behind The Smile

You know those days, those days where its hard to even smile slightly. Those days where everyone and there uncle seems to have something negative to throw at you. I have had one of those days the last 24 hours. I am darn good at hiding it from those that let me, I have had years of practise.

Depression isn’t something that goes away no matter what its there, you can manage it and deal with it but sometimes those days just bring it all back to a head. It’s rare for me to not be positive and upbeat in a blog and no this isn’t a poor me blog, this is me giving myself a kick up the ass, I need to remember I am not alone in either world, I need to remember just how lucky I am. Yes I need to, it is no point telling me too because I wont believe you, I have to find the belief in myself. The doubt, the insecurity and the feeling of worthlessness is all within me,

I know many of you out there that read this will feel that link, you will know and understand the feelings I feel and understand right now why I type this blog with tears in my eyes.

Behind The Smile

So this is me unexposed like never before within this blog, my armour down, the bravado switched off. Will I be ok, yes, because I have a good support mechanism, I know I need support right now and will reach out to the people I know can help me reassure myself I am something. Think of me what you will for this post, but don’t judge me till you have reached deep within yourself.

Behind The Smile

What I am wearing!
Hair ~Blueberry – Ida – Hair Design – Fades- Hair Fair 2015
Head. Skin & Body Appliers- Lumae :Amber :: Draven {LightBrow}
Mesh Body Hands& Feet- Maitreya LaraV3.3
Mesh Head & Expressions- LOGO Infinity Alex
Eye IKON ‘Sunrise’ Eyes – Pale Arabian Blue
Dress Picture2-  Que Bella – Suma~Purple Flowers- Bewbapalooza July
Dress Picture 3- Que Bella  Suma~Peach Flowers (Exclusive)- Bewbapalooza July


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